Having said that, life still happened on me, and it did so in a bloody big way!
Who knows how things will unfold in life, I really thought I had it all perfectly planned out. My favorite pillar of thought has always been, “Happen on Life or life will happen on you,” hmmm how did that work out for me.
Health and other stuff Happens
2012 I broke my neck in a cycling event, and was paralysed down my right side for 9 months.
2016 the most hostile metastatic and terminal cancer on the planet – like metastatic Pancreatic Cancer, Cholangiocarcinoma defeats over 95 % of its victims within 5 years – I was given 6 months to live and it came down to just days and minutes. I have been deep within the jaws of death on several occasions, my survival can be attributed to a combination of medical genius, and a mindset that helped good luck unfold. I think these types of events would blow a significant hole in the best of plans, but worse than that, I dragged my family through a very dark living hell.
Winning the Global Lottery
I became one of just 4 people globally, to have ever reversed and survived metastatic stage 4 Cholangiocarcinoma, via immunotherapy (Keytruda). Hopefullly as you read this the number will have grown.
Claire and I owe special thanks to CCF USA, who flew us to Salt Lake City where we meet 2 of the 4, (and other patients.) They also hosted us, along with 300 of the worlds best Cancer Researchers, Oncologists, Surgeons, and Pharmaceutical Companies, who had all come together to focus on this terrible cancer.
Over the past 4 years, I have met many people and been to many places I didn’t know existed. I have experienced significant insights into myself and humankind – the stuff of nightmares and movies, yet within all this, great things rose up. It will take me some time to comprehend and file all that I have experienced and learned.
Writing it out of my head.
When cancer struck, a wise friend (Kev) told me to record my journey so I would not forget, and it would also be something for the kids to remember me by. Kev’s advice unwittingly exposed that I did not understand my own thinking machine and the processing of “thoughts in and thinking out.” I guess I had never thought about how it all worked – it was, what it was. Regardless of this ignorance, my thinking machine had become clogged, congested and far less equipped to take on the challenge ahead. It needed an overhaul before I began adding more to the clog. I needed to ditch, and dump, clean it all out and better understand myself. So I created “Chapters of Me,’ a series of loosely titled chapters on my iPhone App – Evernote. I then began the big empty out, rapidly dumping everything out of my head into chapters of me. Hmmm easier said than done! Then came the big sifting, simplifying, and sorting – this was without a doubt one of the hardest things I have ever undertaken, it was very confronting stuff, yet liberating at the same time. I was regaining a sense of self-control despite my fast physical deterioration. It gave slithers of sunshine and hope.
My reality is my reality –
I had essentially begun to write myself out of a bad story and into a much better one – a new reality began. I created a parallel world to escape too, a place that fed my dreams and visions, allowing them to breathe and make plans that needed no logic or the approval of others. I had left little space in my thoughts for the creeping shadows of death and demise. I am a great believer in the self-responsibility of continued education, and following the science where it exists. I am not a believer in the magic pill or alternative treatments that have no foundations in science. Keytruda has the science, so I took the chance, there were 9 of us, I made it, the other 8 were not so fortunate. The full opportunity within life, will always be just beyond my conscious measure, so to reach out and extend beyond it, is to embrace more of that opportunity. This is the same formula for everything in life – sport, business, family, and friends, it’s all the same really, it just takes honest discipline and a consistent effort to engage in the potential, that life affords us all.
The Magic trick –
I knew if I was to survive then I would need to pull off a seemingly impossible “Walk on Water” magic trick, which defied the realities of the majority, and the stats that proved them right. To me, those stats are just an indicator of past results. I am not religious or spiritual, but I am a believer in remaining open to the possibility, that we can walk on water if we need too.
‘Need’ drives the intangible to find its outward expression, therein lies the ‘magic.’ Anyone who remains open and willing to this possibility, has a chance. This became the single defining factor that saved my life.